You should write a book!

You should write a book, that's what quite a few people have said to me through the years, as if I knew the first fucking thing about writing a book! I have to admit though that the thought has crossed my mind from time to time but I don't know how to string words together in order to create sentences that contain weight, meaning & depth or how to put my thoughts onto paper, as if anyone would even be interested after having red all the endless biographies about people in bands who have done it all. What have I got that's worth telling? I'm an expert at discarding my own efforts I really am,all the same, the idea of trying to come to terms with who I really am & understanding what my life has been all about up until now is certainly an interesting one & trying to understand what I’m really thinking & what it is I've been doing with my life all these years could prove to be a trip!

The question is where would I start if I wrote a book & how would I approach it, well I'll be fucked if I know, in the end it doesn't really make a difference because no matter what I typed, whatever witty formulations I chose the words would still feel awkward, stupid & forced, I'm not very good when it comes to the self esteem department, it's not something I'm proud of & I'm constantly trying to change my attitude towards myself & my achievements but it's hard, really fucking hard! Still it would be fun to give it a go someday, if nothing else then maybe what I wrote would give my friends an insight into the "wonderful" world of Zak & his good times, bad times, trials & tribulations!

I don't know where my low self esteem comes from because I'm actually good at quite at alot of things once I actually make my mind up & set my sight on a goal & I don’t stop until I’m done once I really feel something! Also I have friends & family who care about me & constantly put up with my whims & ways. I'm simply not very good at believing in my own strengths or at selling myself, I'm not very good at networking & I'm not very good at small-talk just for the sake of making noise with my lips & making it seem like I'm having a ball or have something in common with people when I don't! I'm polite & I'll give myself that much but that's about it! Anyway it's an intersting idea & maybe one day I'll give it a shot!

Pin me down!

in 1995 we travelled to Chicago to shoot this video, all because Eric Zimmerman who had done the video for Soundgardens Jesus Christ pose was hot shit at the time, lived there & was someone we wanted to work with as we were all big fans...of Soundgarden!:D As you can see for yourselves you can really sense the Chicago scenary in the background so going all the way over there made sense ha ha! We shot the thing in some industrial area of the city, in a factory, I honestly can't remember much about the shoot but we had a great time in the bars!:D I never did understand those weird animations either but I probably didn't dare say anything about it at the time, silly me! Still all these years later it's funny to look at & remember how thrilled we were to go to the USA, live in a cockroach motel with 57 channels on the TV but nothing on!:D

When everything crumbles!

It's always flattering when a band decides to cover one of your songs, no matter how well they succeed it always means that you've made an impression! Funny though that Flattus chose such an akward song to cover & one that divided the band into two camps, one Norwegian & one Swedish, hell Jocke & me even made our own hardcore version of this track as we never felt the version that made the album was all it could be, still, thank you Flattus, for even daring to give it a shot!

I'm quitting my day job!:D

It looks like good luck is finally coming my way, soon I'll be a millionaire! I mailed Ming Yang straight away & now I'm eagerly awaiting his reply!:D

Smoking in the boys room!

This pretty much says it all, I'm so glad I'm not a smoker...no I never said I don't have vices cos' I have plenty but a smoker I am not, I've never found gaschambers appealing, especialy not at airports!

More shots from Woodstock 2009!

Snoop doggy dog!

A dog hairdresser with a sense of humour or pure coincidence? I don't know but I thought it was kind of funny at least!:D

The blues!

Photo:Henrik Schyffert

A dad picking his son up from the after schools activities centre had his new camera with him today & was taking random shots of the kids & the staff while saying hi, when I got home I found this snapshot in my mailbox, it's a great picture & I must say it pretty much sums up my monday!