The best & the worst!

Another Clawfinger song from 2005 to add to the collection!

18 years since I saw you the first time and I'm still here right next to you
we've had our ups and our fair share of downs that we've both been through
you know I've done wrong but I've tried to be strong and give in to you
if that's what it takes to make everything work out then that's what I'll do
to get through to you

The best and the worst, the last and the first
The love of my life is a blessing and curse

I don't believe that there's more to achieve in this love affair
And I can't just swallow my pride and pretend I'm prepared to be there
If you can't trust me there's no guarantee that I won't disappear
I'm so sick of these mind games, it's time to confront all of our greatest fears
& just be sincere... ....

[Chorus]

Every word that I've said has been straight from my heart & ya know that's true
Every road that I've walked down somehow always leads me right back to you
If push comes to shove and I'm forced to fight there's nothing that I won't do
Come sunshine come rain, come pleasure come pain, half of me belongs to you
And I depend on you

[Chorus]

Sick of myself!

Here's a song of ours from one of my darker moments, off our Hate yourself with style album, not a very uplifting track & certainly not one fit for the summer holidays but I thought I'd share it with you anyway just because I'm such a generous guy!:D
I'm good for nothing, I'm a fucking bad excuse
The truth is that I just can't be of any use
So show me where the noose is and watch me when I die
I've made so many knots that I don't know how to untie
I've tried every angle, tried to handle my emotions
I'm strangeling myself up to the point of self implosion
I'm drowning in an ocean full of thought so self abusive
It's a downward spiral, it's the hate that hate produces

I make myself, so sick of myself x3 I hate myself

I'm stuck in a corner this is my own private casket
Four walls around me I feel like a sitting target
I can't find the exit without asking for directions
But I can't find it in me, to ask you any questions
I don't like suggestions and I hate to take advice
Cos' that's a sign of weakness, I can't make that sacrifice
The vice is that I'm selfish but I still need recognition
I fear and loathe myself when I'm forced into submission

I make myself, so sick of myself x3 I hate myself

All the hate I hide in me is constantly misguiding me
And all my mixed emotions slowly building up inside of me
It's like an evil guide in me is breaking down the pride in me
I don't know what's right from wrong my feelings are dividing me

All the hate I hide in me
Is building up inside of me
And breaking down the pride in me
It's like something has died in me

Gröna Lund & Fjäderholmarna!

The plan was to spend a quiet weekend home alone with Felix, because that was what we needed, or at least what I needed! Of course it didn't happen that way, as soon as we got home from the Dark Island I got a mess from Jocke asking if we wanted to accompany them to Gröna Lund! Gröna Lund is Stockholms main amusement park, I wasn't too thrilled simply because I was very TIRED but when I told Felix he said that he WANTED to! It turned out to be a good laugh & felix loved Jockes & Neas child Elliot, he's always been drawn to slightly younger kids & he's only 7 so no that doesn't sound bad!:D He had a ball & went on his first ever rides, we ended the evening on Jockes brother Pelles sailboat drinking wine while the kids played in the cabin, hell we even took a taxi home at 23:00 which is VERY late for Felix but what the fuck, it's the summer holidays!We planned to spend sunday at home but of course ended up joining them on the sailboat again, this time out to Fjäderholmarna which is one of Stockholms closest archipelago islands! Felix was concerned about it but still wanted to go, he hates leaning boats & told me he mostly wanted to go because he really likes Elliot, they even held hand at Gröna Lund he told me!:D We sailed with only one sail so Felix had no need to even worry although he did anyway!:D We spent a good few hours there, eating, drinking, sitting in the sun & discovering the Island although it has to be said we're all a bunch of city people so in the end the nicest part was sitting drinking beer in the sun & for the kids it was eating ice cream!:D What an absolutely lovely weekend against all odds!

Racheal Yamagata: Over & over

I really thought I was okay
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke this time
There was nothing to take me back to sleep
To take you off my mind, this time

And I keep saying
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I need to hide within a storm
So have the lightning come
Bring the winds that scream
And spill the fog all over town
Hold me in your standstill ground
And I will sink down
And you’ll be washed away
You’ll be washed away

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I really thought I was okay
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke up this time
There was nothing to take you off my mind

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I need to hide within a storm
So have the lightning come
Bring the winds that scream
Spill the fog all over town

Break through every door
Strip away the trees
Raise the rivers high
Just help me drown

Hold me in your standstill ground
And I will sink down
And you’ll be washed away
You’ll be washed away

Dala Husby!

The summer holidays continue, from the Dark Island we went to Dala Husby to vist mum & Vivi where we've now spent 3 days, it's always nice to get some help with an energetic lonesome 7 year old, as he lacks friends his own age he spends alot of his time talking & acting like a grown-up & it of course gets tiring, for him & for us! Here he's been able to explore the near surroundings, go canoeing & use up some of his energy, still with grown-ups sadly enough but still, at least a slight variation from his grumpy parents! I think we need to invite some friends with kids out to the Dark Island which we head back to later on today, just have to think of who! Yesterday we visited Anders Zorns house in Mora & took the guided tour, it's always inspiring to see how artists lived as it gives yo a feel for who they were & how they created their art! Ok, time to head down to the dock & watch the dalälven run by, who knows, I might even find some peace & tranquility?

GONE FISHING!

TEMPORARILY OUT OF ORDER, GONE FISHING!

Clawfinger at Devilside!

Here's a small taste of sundays gig at the Devilside festival in Germany, for those of you who weren't there & might be interested in whether or not we still run our business like in the old days & that we still fuck shit up like we should, in a good way that is!:D